Yesterday was rough-on both the pain and emotional fronts.
And let me be clear, I’ve never regretted my decision for a second, but there are some things I need to take my time getting used to. One of those things is looking at my un-bandaged arm! For lack of better terms at the moment, mainly I just find it kind of gross. Yes it’s my body. And yes I love my decision. But no I don’t love looking at my unhealed incision and oddly-shaped swollen arm.
Yesterday the bandages came off for the third time and although it wasn’t pleasant, I didn’t panic and cry half as much as the first time, and that means progress.
I look a little miserable (turns out amputations hurt, so I was). But I’m trying hard to be grateful and focus on the important things, the most important thing being that I somehow managed to find a Squishmallow to rest my very painful little arm on amid the 2021 Squishmallows shortage due to-supply chain. I never thought I’d be on the lookout for one of 2021´s most popular kids toys but these things are pretty perfect for an amputee post-op. Nothing like resting your severed arm on a rainbow unicorn.